They don't know what I go through |16 December 2016

They don't know what I go through. They think that because I smile and I choose to see the good in every situation that I am fine and that I don't have any feelings. But, I do have feelings.

I am 17 years old. I can't say that I don't know what bullying is. I have been a victim of its ugly head. It is one of the main reasons for the taint in our generation.

My demeanour portrays confidence but all my insecurities are buried deep. My tears have ran out. At least that is what I try to tell myself every second of every day. I feel like I need to be better in every situation. I feel like I need to be strong because exposing my soft skin to the world will only encourage them to press the knife and draw out blood. I tell myself that I have succeeded in shutting all of it out years ago. Even if my heart is dying from the lack of oxygen, and it is breaking inside.

I felt it deeply when they ripped out my heart with their harsh words, hurtful actions, and they did whatever they wanted. I am the one that they teased to no end because they saw me as different. You may not understand fully. You think you do.  You try to. You think you can fix everything because you see me this way. You think I don't feel because I put on the charade. But I do. I do have emotions.

They don't know what I go through. Just because they have watched a few movies and read a few articles that they know what I'm feeling. What I'm feeling is my own. No person takes the same kind of medicine for the same disease. I am me. I know how I feel.

But some of you know how I feel. Some of you know how it feels to be forgotten. Some of you know how it feels to be singled out. I don't want anyone to take pity on me. I want everyone to take pity for the boy or the girl that your friends torment every day. The one that goes home crying and feels that no one will care, because they don't have anyone left. Think about the person who is trying so hard to keep it together laughing by laughing on the outside while he is burying his real feelings deep inside.

Bullying doesn't just happen at school. Bullying can happen at home, it can happen in the road. It’s not really technology. Technology is the way that most of us find an outlet to rid ourselves of the pain that we keep caged inside.

I am not blaming anyone from any generation. I am blaming every one of them from every generation. I am blaming the bullies throughout history. I am accusing the bullies in the past, future and I am blaming the bullies at this very moment.

Bullying in any form is not fun. Bullying in any form hurts.

Bullies are murderers; they kill originality, creativity, uniqueness and they are the reason for numerous suicidal cases.

Bullies are criminals because they make criminals.

So, think before you speak. Think before you say he is just an attention seeker. There may be something deeper behind his violent actions. Think about it!!

You don't know how I feel. We all have our story.

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